Wednesday, December 12, 2007

All the creation testifies for His glory



6 questions for astronaut Dr. Scott Parazynski


By Bill Scanlon

Tuesday, December 4, 2007

Tethered to the tip of the International Space Station, astronaut Dr. Scott Parazynski looked across the Himalayas, saw the Northern Lights and felt like the luckiest man above the face of the Earth.


Parazynski, a former Evergreen resident, last month performed what NASA is calling one of the greatest "space saves" in the history of manned space flight.


The crew of the space shuttle Discovery had installed a pressurized compartment on one side of the space station.


But when they unfurled two solar wings, on a girder on the left side of the space station, the second one snagged in tangled wires, ripping in two places.


Without the solar wings, the space station wouldn't have enough power to function, and the efforts and hopes of scientists worldwide would blink off.


Parazynski, an emergency room specialist, floated outside with wire cutters, pliers and homemade tools to fix the torn wing.


Propped on a 90-foot extension beam, he was farther away from the safe confines of the space station than any astronaut had ever been.


He also was dangerously close to a solar wing that had 100 volts of electricity.


Exhausting? Yes.


Successful? You betcha.


Monday morning, Parazynski answered questions posed by the Rocky Mountain News:


1 You're a scuba diver, a world-class luger, a rock climber. You've climbed all 53 of Colorado's 14,000-foot peaks. Was the space walk comparable to any of those?


The closest comparison would be a really difficult rock climb.


You're on belay the whole time. You have to be aware of your surroundings at all times. You're at your physical and mental limits.


2 Can you describe what it was like, out there alone, having a perspective hardly any of us will ever have?


There were so many things. It was a stream of consciousness that could cover a thousand pages. I'm not eloquent enough to do it justice.


To look back from the very tip of the space station at the most remarkable technology human beings have ever built . . . to look down across the Himalayas, to see sunrises and sunsets . . .


It was a real sense of awe, thinking of God's creation, feeling so fortunate to be there, so many powerful emotions coming over you as you stand there.


3 You're a doctor. How can space travel advance medicine?


In space, we can see changes in the body that mimic the normal aging process.


Because of the lack of gravity, there is a deterioration of the muscles and of bone density and a sense of balance.


As we sit on the couch on a weekend, we're actually doing a simulation of space flight, because we're not using our muscles.


In space, you push off with your fingertips and fly around like Buzz Lightyear.


If you're looking at osteoporosis in post-menopausal women, the space environment is a great lab. You can look at cause and effect, and at how things change, but the effects come much more quickly.


You can see how your countermeasures are working very directly.


4 How did you exercise in the space shuttle?


Because space walks are very physically challenging, it's important to exercise on board to preserve our capacity to use our muscles.


I used a bike that's similar to what you'd see in a spin class.


For the astronauts that are up in space for months, it's important that they get more resistance training, so we have a hydraulic system that simulates weights.


5 What drove you to the astronaut program, or for that matter, to all the other adventures in your life?


I had just incredible parents, very supportive. They were adventurers in their own right. My father worked for Boeing, and we lived in a lot of interesting places, including overseas.


I got the travel bug and the adventurous spirit from them. It shaped the way I look at life.


I'm like a lot of people in Colorado who relish experience and adventure.


6 Do your wife and two kids worry about you?


Yes, certainly. They are glad I'm done. They're ready for me to sit on the Barcalounger, I guess. Of course, I doubt if I'll do that.


But it does take a toll on the family. It's not without risk.


You can't do something of great significance and not be willing to take risks. You're respectful of the risks.


And I trust that everyone at NASA, everyone who works on the space shuttle, is doing everything they can to make sure it's as safe as humanly possible.


The benefits far outweigh the risks.

© Rocky Mountain News




source : http://www.rockymountainnews.com/news/2007/dec/11/volunteer-vaults-to-hero-status/

Church guard gains hero status
Ex-cop 'was very focused' as she 'took him down'
By Fernando Quintero
Originally published 12:30 a.m., December 11, 2007 Updated 11:54 a.m., December 11, 2007

The gunshots echoed like thunder in the hallway filling with smoke and the panic of those who sensed death at their shoulder.



The black-clad gunman coming through the church door was bringing hell to the believers.



The only thing in his way was Jeanne Assam.



"People were running away from where the shots were fired. I saw him through the chaos," Assam said Monday as she searched for some of the calm that carried her through the nightmare that played out inside New Life Church the day before.



"It seemed like it was me, the gunman and God," said Assam, whose hands trembled slightly as she spoke during the afternoon news conference.



Assam took cover and waited for the gunman to get close.



"God was with me. I was very focused. My hands weren't even shaking," said Assam, a volunteer security guard at New Life.



"I identified myself and engaged him then took him down," Assam said, giving a clinical account of the moment when she fired the shot ending the gunman's rampage.



"I didn't think for a minute to run away," she said.



A witness close enough to be hit by a bullet fragment is one of those who credits Assam with saving lives that day.



"She kept yelling, 'Surrender.' She was not flinching. It was unbelievable," said Larry Bourbonnais, 59, a New Life parishioner who was slightly injured on his left arm.



The gunman had fatally wounded two teenage girls in the parking lot before entering the building. But, New Life Pastor Brady Boyd said, if the attacker had made it another 60 feet down the hall, he could have shot hundreds of parishioners still inside.



Bourbonnais said the gunman was dressed in black with an assault rifle slung over his shoulder. Bourbonnais said he took cover behind a pillar as gunshots were exchanged.



Through the smoke that came from devices police had shot into the facility, Bourbonnais said he saw the gunman's head tilt forward, and then he fell to the ground.



"There were two other armed guards, but they weren't doing anything. I asked one of them to give me their gun so I could take the guy out," said Bourbonnais, a Colorado Springs resident who said he is a Vietnam veteran.



"I asked her, 'How are you so calm?' She said, 'I was praying to the Holy Spirit the whole time to direct me,' " Bourbonnais said recalling Assam's words. "The whole thing probably lasted 30 seconds."



Assam, who said she has been a member of New Life for a few months, said the incident happened on the last day of a three-day fast she had been on as part of her religious practice.



"I was weak. God made me strong. I'm honored God chose me," she said.



Assam said she read about the shootings in Arvada earlier in the day and "got chills."



A small woman with feathered blonde hair and eyes that were bloodshot, Assam said she had not slept since the tragedy and can't get the sound of the gunshots out of her head.



The shots were so loud, Assam said, it sounded like they were fired inside the church.



A former officer with the Minneapolis police, Assam delivered her story with the clipped understatement of a street cop.



But she broke the tension when asked about her personal background.



"I'm single. No kids," she said, quickly adding she was on the lookout for a man. She drew a laugh when she first declined to give her age; then said she was 25. She is 42, according to public records.



Assam grew up in Sioux Falls, S.D., went to Hamline University and graduated with a criminal justice degree, said her twin sister, Jennifer, of Sioux Falls. She has five sisters and a brother.



She worked with the Minneapolis police for several years in the late '90s before leaving the department and moving to Colorado in 2000.



Lt. Robert Kroll, vice president of the Minneapolis Police Union, confirmed that Assam was fired over "truthfulness issues." In an internal investigation, Assam had denied she used derogatory language in an encounter with a citizen in the late 1990s, but a videotape proved differently, Kroll said. Assam appealed, but the firing was upheld by an arbitrator.



Boyd said that Assam is one of 12 members of his congregation who volunteer to work as guards at New Life. Half of those volunteers carry firearms, he said, and all of those are licensed.



"She's a real heroine to me and the New Life Church," Boyd said.



The Minneapolis Star-Tribune contributed to this report.

Monday, December 10, 2007

你 当 走 的 路 甚 远 There is a great journey ahead

因为基督的爱激励我,神的话语:给我使命与肯定成为我这个乞丐的动力。


列 王 紀 上 19
4 (以利亚)自 己 在 旷 野 走 了 一 日 的 路 程 ... 就 坐 在 那 里 求 死 , 说 : 耶 和 华 啊 , 罢 了 ! 求 你 取 我 的 性 命 ...

7 耶 和 华 的 使 者 第 二 次 来 拍 他 , 说 : 起 来 吃 罢 因 为 你 当 走 的 路 甚 远

8 他 就 起 来 吃 了 喝 了 , 仗 着 这 饮 食 的 力 , 走 了 四 十 昼 夜到 了   神 的 山 , 就 是 何 烈 山 。

9 他 在 那 里 进 了 一 个 洞 , 就 住 在 洞 中 。 耶 和 华 的 话 临 到 他 说 : 以 利 亚 啊 , 你 在 这 里 做 甚 麽 ?

10 他 说 : 我 为 耶 和 华 ─ 万 军 之   神 大 发 热 心 ; 因 为 以 色 列 人 背 弃 了 你 的 约 , 毁 坏 了 你 的 坛 , 用 刀 杀 了 你 的 先 知 , 只 剩 下 我 一 个 人 , 他 们 还 要 寻 索 我 的 命 。

11 耶 和 华 说 : 你 出 来 站 在 山 上 , 在 我 面 前 。 那 时 耶 和 华 从 那 里 经 过 , 在 他 面 前 有 烈 风 大 作 , 崩 山 碎 石 , 耶 和 华 却 不 在 风 中 ; 风 後 地 震 , 耶 和 华 却 不 在 其 中 ;

12 地 震 後 有 火 , 耶 和 华 也 不 在 火 中 ; 火 後 有 微 小 的 声 音 。

13 以 利 亚 听 见 , 就 用 外 衣 蒙 上 脸 , 出 来 站 在 洞 口 。 有 声 音 向 他 说 : 以 利 亚 啊 , 你 在 这 里 做 甚 麽 ?

14 他 说 : 我 为 耶 和 华 ─ 万 军 之   神 大 发 热 心 ; 因 为 以 色 列 人 背 弃 了 你 的 约 , 毁 坏 了 你 的 坛 , 用 刀 杀 了 你 的 先 知 , 只 剩 下 我 一 个 人 他 们 还 要 寻 索 我 的 命 。


18 但 我 在 以 色 列 人 中 为 自 己 留 下 七 千 人 , 是 未 曾 向 巴 力 屈 膝 的 , 未 曾 与 巴 力 亲 嘴 的 。





纵无人愿意 我仍要跟随
纵无人愿意 我仍要跟随
纵无人愿意 我仍要跟随
永不倒退 永不倒退



讲是讲得到,做是要操练的 (我要 我要 我要练!)




虽然无花果树不发旺,葡萄树不结果,橄榄树也不效力,田地不出粮食,圈内绝了羊,棚内也没有牛,然而要因耶和华欢欣,因救我的神喜乐(哈巴谷 三17~18

Sunday, December 9, 2007

THY lovingkindness is better than life

感谢神今天我和曼欣有机会一起参与今天的主日学教课。

感谢神在我紧急时垂听我不配的祷告(感谢神:让我爱主日学,让我爱主所爱的小朋友,爱我,给我力量,容我不断的尝试~叫我不至灰心、可以继续走)

由於昨天我们都很累,今天俩人状况都不是最佳。 (曼欣累得一到家,几乎即刻睡着;今天我还没清醒来,头就隐隐作痛~不知哪根精不对)
今天的小朋友并不多,约12位,我们(我,曼欣,小Samuel)都在开始前的时候一起祷告。然后我们就玩小朋友提议过的游戏( musical chair),唱诗歌(没有用radio),奉献,听故事,背经,手工。

在一切的蹦蹦跳跳里,没有一刻是我记得我的头痛,可是,出奇的地方就是,当我们把东西都移到storeroom之后,我的头又忍不住痛了起来

虽然大家都说圣经已经明言,在这末世的世代里,再没有“神迹”可显现了,但是主知道他的孩子需要帮助的时候。如果真有这么多的巧合,那么神真的太可爱了,把这些我需要的巧合都巧合在正需要的时候。

虽然近日来,未得救的灵魂甚多,侍奉的机会慢慢增加;同工的精兵似乎有时似有似无,父母的要求(时间,金钱 申命记 8:18 你要记念耶和华你的神,因为得货财的力量是他给你的,为要坚定他向你列祖起誓所立的约,像今日一样。,学业),家里的压力渐渐日增,距离考试的日子也越发接近 ~书,10%都没有温,但是感谢主, 总查觉当我继续走,我仍可以走下去,因为神的爱激励我!但愿上帝也常对你说话,给你力量。

歌 后 5:14 原来基督的爱激励我们



我心切慕耶稣,如鹿慕溪水
示也 慈爱比生命更好,我因主欢喜
我心称谢耶稣,我要歌颂我主
示也 是我良朋和蜜友,示也 永在我身旁


______________________________

Not only did our sunday school today marvel me, but also my brother's response and reactions towards our upcoming flag day. "give me a reminder for that too" he said.

Woooo!!!!


I don't love flag days ok (who does? you tell me) but for the good of whom i'm supporting, church, Breakthrough ... or who ever i'm doing it for. I do it with all my heart all my soul my might and every single cell of me jumps like crazy while we 're at it.

This time, it's not me and me alone. It's me, my brother and it's me and my brother!!! YAY!!!

this is significant, not only does that equate his participation into our event, but it means his heart is fine tuning and ready to serve GOD.

I'm so happy!! (don't need to sleep tonight already)

Friday, December 7, 2007

你收到没有?

有一件礼物 你收到没有?

眼睛看不到 你心会知道。

这一件礼物 心门外等候,

是为了你准备 别人不能收



亲爱的朋友 你是否想到

马槽的婴孩 是为你而来

亲爱的朋友 你是否了解

最好的礼物 是人子主耶稣



生命,有限  

时光,也会走

如果你不珍惜,机会难留



礼物,虽然好

如果 你不要

你怎么能够得到? 怎么能得到? 

Thursday, December 6, 2007

你 们 要 去 Go ye therefore

19 所 以 , 你 们 要 去 , 使 万 民 作 我 的 门 徒 , 奉 父 、 子 、 圣 灵 的 名 给 他 们 施 洗 ( 或 作 : 给 他 们 施 洗 , 归 於 父 、 子 、 圣 灵 的 名 ) 。

20 凡 我 所 吩 咐 你 们 的 , 都 教 训 他 们 遵 守 , 我 就 常 与 你 们 同 在 , 直 到 世 界 的 末 了 。


Matthew 28:18-20
18 And Jesus came and spake unto them, saying, All power is given unto me in heaven and in earth.

19 Go ye therefore, and teach all nations, baptizing them in the name of the Father, and of the Son, and of the Holy Ghost:

20 Teaching them to observe all things whatsoever I have commanded you: and, lo, I am with you always, even unto the end of the world. Amen.

Wednesday, December 5, 2007

十架呼聲

The Call of the Cross

主愛在我心激動 聽見飢渴呼聲
怎能硬著鐵石心腸 見人沉淪滅亡


不再軟弱靠主剛強 主必賜我力量
忘記背後 努力向前 豈能再負主恩

各各他山十字架 主擔當眾罪孽
想起主愛如此高深 自問愛主多深

我們在靈裏合一 奔向十架道路
彼此配搭同心事奉 報答我主宏恩 song link http://www.baptab.org.nz/Music.asp?action=ShowSongWords_CN&id=27


每次见到"可爱" (其实:似乎可怜没有人疼爱) 的同胞, 这样的感触就自然而然地在我的心敲起警钟来。为什么有人那么可悲的过日子,为什么他们要来,用劳力,用生命来赚去生不带来死不带去的钱财?还不是为了糊口三餐饭钱?



为什么作雇主的不可以多爱他们一点?

在这段不长的日子里,不只眼见耳闻工友多少辛酸,折腾。 不提风吹日晒,狂风细雨,面对陌生,不适宜的住宿环境,冷面的督工,外籍同事,还有工作压力,被欺压,被骗的可能性与压力,雇主的要求... 真难叫我不对他们多一分怜悯 /感触。



~ 我的心,哎, 碎了。 我有何的何能为他们作什么呢? 我能帮几个?我能顾几个?
















“你们一切干渴的,都当就近水来;没有银钱的也可以来。你们都来,买了吃;不用银钱,不用价值,也来买酒和奶。”(赛五五1。)

以 賽 亞 書 55


1 你 们 一 切 乾 渴 的 都 当 就 近 水 来 ; 没 有 银 钱 的 也 可 以 来 。 你 们 都 来 , 买 了 吃 ; 不 用 银 钱 , 不 用 价 值 , 也 来 买 酒 和 奶 。

2 你 们 为 何 花 钱 ( 原 文 是 平 银 ) 买 那 不 足 为 食 物 的 ? 用 劳 碌 得 来 的 买 那 不 使 人 饱 足 的 呢 ? 你 们 要 留 意 听 我 的 话 就 能 吃 那 美 物 , 得 享 肥 甘 , 心 中 喜 乐 。

3 你 们 当 就 近 我 来 ; 侧 耳 而 听 , 就 必 得 活 。 我 必 与 你 们 立 永 约 , 就 是 应 许 大 卫 那 可 靠 的 恩 典 。

4 我 已 立 他 作 万 民 的 见 证 , 为 万 民 的 君 王 和 司 令 。

5
你 素 不 认 识 的 国 民 , 你 也 必 召 来 ; 素 不 认 识 你 的 国 民 也 必 向 你 奔 跑 , 都 因 耶 和 华 ─ 你 的 神 以 色 列 的 圣 者 , 因 为 他 已 经 荣 耀 你 。

6 当 趁 耶 和 华 可 寻 找 的 时 候 寻 找 他 , 相 近 的 时 候 求 告 他 。

7 恶 人 当 离 弃 自 己 的 道 路 ; 不 义 的 人 当 除 掉 自 己 的 意 念 。 归 向 耶 和 华 , 耶 和 华 就 必 怜 恤 他 ; 当 归 向 我 们 的 神 , 因 为 神 必 广 行 赦 免 。

8 耶 和 华 说 : 我 的 意 念 非 同 你 们 的 意 念 ; 我 的 道 路 非 同 你 们 的 道 路 。

9 天 怎 样 高 过 地 , 照 样 , 我 的 道 路 高 过 你 们 的 道 路 ; 我 的 意 念 高 过 你 们 的 意 念 。

10 雨 雪 从 天 而 降 , 并 不 返 回 , 却 滋 润 地 土 , 使 地 上 发 芽 结 实 , 使 撒 种 的 有 种 , 使 要 吃 的 有 粮 。


11 我 口 所 出 的 话 也 必 如 此 , 决 不 徒 然 返 回 , 却 要 成 就 我 所 喜 悦 的 , 在 我 发 他 去 成 就 ( 发 他 去 成 就 : 或 译 所 命 定 ) 的 事 上 必 然 亨 通 。


12 你 们 必 欢 欢 喜 喜 而 出 来 , 平 平 安 安 蒙 引 导 。 大 山 小 山 必 在 你 们 面 前 发 声 歌 唱 ; 田 野 的 树 木 也 都 拍 掌 。

13 松 树 长 出 , 代 替 荆 棘 ; 番 石 榴 长 出 , 代 替 蒺 藜 。 这 要
为 耶 和 华 留 名 , 作 为 永 远 的 证 据 , 不 能 剪 除 。

怎能硬著鐵石心腸 見人沉淪滅亡

Tuesday, December 4, 2007

我一生最大的事

Thank you GOD for the thorn on the Rose. Photo Credits to : nds @ Flickster





我一生最大的事



我一生最大的事 是认识耶和华
我一生最美的路 是主为我兴起
示也 将我极重的罪 投在深海里
示也 的喜乐和平'安 无一能相比

哦 沙伦的玫瑰花 我今认识你

哦 园中的凤仙花 我更爱慕你
哦 谷中的百合花 我深深'爱着你
你是万古的磐石 我一生投靠你




所以,你们要去使万民作我的门徒,奉父,子,圣灵的名给他们施洗。凡我所教训你们的,都教导他们遵守,我就常与你们同在,知道世界的末了。



昨天我们三福队去了AMK街头布道 SE。 XY赫然发觉这世代的人 ~ 嗯,特别是中年的人/老年的人好顽更哦。纵然他们眼见耳闻世界被造得如此奇妙,但是他们确实不思想,也不寻找那真正创造掌管一切一切的主宰。

有人人为年事已高,永生的问题,世界的事在也犹如退出江湖,对于天堂毫不渴慕 也不在意将来要往那里去。

有人自义认为世界好的无比,神在/不在并不重要 ~ 因为未领略在天堂的更美好的一切 (从没有眼泪,没有痛苦的家乡,只有爱,光芒的永恒。 因为神就是爱

更有以为毫不关己置身事外的,以为不去想,一切都不会应验

~ XY想是否因为这社会里,我们拥有的太多了,多过于我们的智慧能够负荷的富裕了? 以至我们这小红点沉浸于一个自我的境界里?纵然我们都丰衣足食,并不反映全球的社会都一般。纵然我们安居乐业,国泰民安,并非众人都无天灾人祸,兵荒马乱,战火连天,许许多多不仅其数的人们在与贫困,罪恶, 疾病,污染......四方五路的压迫挣扎求存... 我亲'爱的朋友, 若您在阅读我的纳闷的心声时也有所共鸣, 我要告诉您, 这些天灾人祸必要肆虐, 因为世上的一切 (连一件都没有)没有一件常存, 唯有真神的话语要永永远远立定,永不动摇。 那时,众人都必见圣经的话应验。



主必快来。 主,愿你来时,称我们为良善,可受托付的管家。
愿你快来!


Monday, December 3, 2007

Happiness & Coffee



" The happiest people in the world are not those who have no problems,but those who learn to live with things that are less than perfect."

* A group of graduates, highly established in their careers, got together to visit their old university professor.

* Conversation soon turned into complaints about stress in work and life.

* Offering his guests coffee, the professor went to the kitchen andreturned with a large pot of coffee and an assortment of cups - porcelain, plastic, glass, crystal, some plain looking, someexpensive, some exquisite - telling them to help themselves to the coffee.

* When all the students had a cup of coffee, the professor said:"If you noticed, all the nice looking expensive cups were taken up, leaving behind the simple and cheap ones.

* While it is normal for you to want only the best for yourselves, that is the source of your problems and stress.

* Be assured that the cup itself adds no quality to the coffee.

* In most cases, it is just more expensive and in some cases evenhides what we drink.

* What all of you really wanted was coffee, not the cup, but you consciously went for the best cups... Then you began eyeing each other's cups.

* Now consider this:

- Life is the coffee; the jobs, money and position in society are the cups.

- They are just tools to hold and contain Life, and the typeof cup we have does not define, nor change the quality of Life we live.

- Sometimes, by concentrating on the cup, we fail to enjoythe coffee God has provided us. Enjoy your coffee!."

* The happiest people don't have the best of everything.
* They just make the best of everything."

1. Live simply.
2. Love generously.
3. Care deeply.
4. Speak kindly.
5. Leave the rest to God.


You are the miracle, my friend;
Your life either shines a light OR casts a shadow!
Shine a light & Enjoy the Coffee!!!




Wednesday, November 28, 2007

A marvelous piece of Engineering






























The bridge (or should it be called tunnel)
goes under water to
allow movement of ships . In order for ships to pass, this bridge is


half under the water.


You drive down in the water
and then come out on
the other side.


Truly a marvelous piece of
engineering!


This bridge is found between Sweden and Denmark.


Picture taken from Sweden's side.

(Credits to Email Fwd by Sis Esther Fu on Wed, 21 Nov 2007 19:22:14 +0800)
Thank you for sharing, dear Esther!
This is really a amazing shot that capture the wonders of engineering.
Too bad many of us does not realise that when we marvel at works of human ,
we forgot about the wonders of how wonderfully intricate we ourselves were crafted by GOD.

It's plain simply irony of how some are found

saying wow! to such human endeavors, crying "impossible, you re crazy" to anyone who 'd claim this is a work of accident.
Yet! at the same time denying GOD who creates and holds the foundations of the world, and rather choosing to believe that humans and all other laws of physics that allows this world to run are plain effects of a "great big explosion" hoo ha
anyway, things like this just set me thinking about.. the stiff necked generation that we really are ....

Monday, October 8, 2007

The Lord is wonderfully good to those who wait for him (Lamentations 3:25).

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Men of Integrity, September/October 2007

Wait Gain
Theme of the Week: Wasted Time?
Friday, October 12


Key Bible Verse:

The Lord is wonderfully good to those who wait for him (Lamentations 3:25).
Bonus Reading:
Luke 2:25-35



Our culture says, "Don't just sit there; do something!" Most of us think of waiting as a passive, hopeless state determined by events out of our hands. The bus is late? You can't do anything about it, so you have to sit there and wait. Being told, "Just wait," irritates us because it seems to push us into passivity.

But there's none of this passivity in Scripture. Those who wait are living the situation out to the full. They're patient because they know what they're waiting for is growing from the ground on which they're standing. The seed has been planted.

Still, this waiting is open-ended. That's hard for us because we tend to wait for something concrete. To wait open-endedly is to trust that something will happen to us far beyond our own imagination or prediction. Giving up control over our future and letting God define our life, trusting Him to mold us according to His life and not according to our fear, is radical. We wait, actively present to the moment, trusting that new things will happen to us. In a world preoccupied with control, that is a radical stance toward life.

—Henri Nouwen in The Weavings Reader




My Response:

Could my impatience mean I'm afraid to really let God be in charge?


Thought to Apply:

In prayer, we are aware that God is in action and that when the circumstances are ready, He will call us into action. Waiting in prayer is a disciplined refusal to act before God acts.—EUGENE PETERSON (Bible translator)

Adapted from The Weavings Reader (Upper Room Books, 1993) by permission.

Copyright © 2007 by the author or Christianity Today International/Men of Integrity magazine.Click here for reprint information on Men of Integrity.September/October 2007, Vol. 10, No. 5

Chorus for the Week-->


Prayer for the Week...

Teach me, Lord, to leash in my drive to make things happen and wait expectantly for Your move.

Friday, October 5, 2007

a part of me is gone

whenever i lost touch with one of them, i lost a part of me



thank GOD for new things to do. new things to work on & be busy with.. God seemed to have answer my outcry to Him. Show me your will and hide not your plans from me my GOD!



whenever i have new decision, the no.1 gives something that plainly does zilch value-add but create trouble and waste time for us - the rest of the world whom wish to put time in for work than for waste.



e.g. documenting every single task u complete. oh, one minute to type sms, one minute to open a document because the PC takes time to process the user input instruction.. is that going to count.



i feel so sorry when our people leave us. i mean leave me. yes we can always call each other, i have your hp. no.s yes i have your msn id(s) we can msn. yes i have your address , i can always email you.



BUT ..



no, we arent colleagues no longer. no, i can't spill to you what our crazy amusement park leader did to the park. no, i can't eat lunch and share the little sour sweet bitter spicy bits on my plate with you... things just arent the same anymore when we aren't working together under one amusement park leader/ studying together under one crazy school / serving in the same church ...



suddenly there are so many changes to my life (bits of my life) at once...



(1) i realise i only have one close friend. the rest are overseas, different frequency from me, too busy to be a close friend, changed over the time....



(2) i do not know what i wanted to do for a living (but friends and colleagues around me does)



(3) i told a gd friend cum boss something which upset him. but there s nothing i could do about it. seeing him so sad makes me feel sad n sorry. but i daren't say sorry, for i won't know what to do about my apology...

i guess.. when such things happen on me.. a part of me is chipped off...

Monday, October 1, 2007

i know why i m sad

有时伤感和纳闷是无法溶入字眼里的世界的。 有时那感觉确是真的比珍珠还真... 每个境遇都是神所容许的。每个经历都非偶然。虽然我身在其中。仍不晓其中缘由。亦不晓终点何处,那,我在奔跑什么?我为什么而劳苦呢。

唉....若不是祢的爱不断激励我,催促我前行,我想我也不知我为什么而迈进.... 因为,我真的累了...

Thursday, September 27, 2007

it's such a chore

I always thank HIM for saving me amongst the lost & hopeless...





i sometimes thank GOD for the days not giving me what i asked for ,





I 'm occassionally thankful to GOD for making me a woman (or at least i 'm created to be one)





Especially on those days when there's a super duper heavy downpouring drumming hard & noisily on the concrete pavements and the metal roofing sheets... thank GOD for those days where i can rightfully put on a short skirt - instead of long pants...





There are always 2 sides of a coin... on the other hand, being a woman means you are expected to
- look better (i.e. more dressed up)


- seemed like more groomed


- smell better


than a man... or at least that was held since a kid... and i still held on to those notion...



only a counselling session by a sophisticated female colleague had i knew there was more than meets the eye to be a really accomplished woman, - u know, a woman who can behave in a lady like manner... In fact, i have no foreseeable projection when this day would ever come by on me



just in making up your face (that is not even greater surface area than a clock face) alone would take so much memory space, skill and expertise to master... (i wish i could throw up my hands in surrender but.. life's a journey. many times a marathon run, sometimes occassionally a slow paced jog... and when i'm really down, it's a slow, comforting, stroll... i will , i must and i can, in the Will of the One whom i had and has believed.

Tuesday, September 25, 2007

Just a little note about what i m currently feeling now. I know, i'm a very blessed individual. I work in a place with lots of freedom with regards to my work, an acceptable payslip. I get to do things my method- as long as they are not in contradiction to my MD, or our written procedures - manual & documented, ok.

(Even if i do really execute things in a way way off from the stated policy, it would still be viable if i removed them right before external audit comes in. That's policy & integrated mgmt system in a not so small yet not big company - welcome to the alibaba world of local firms. )

everyday i get to check my own email right after checking my company's email. do labels for outdated files... write email to friends to say hi. sms on about non company matters. read online stuff to search for things related or not to my company business. who else can be so free n easy.

but do you ever realise. man does not live for bread alone. (for i do have the bread now..) each individual, has a spirit, which longs to do something. that, something that the non-humans do not fathom and could never.

many a times, amid so many influences by our surrounding bad working culture and fellow habits of coworkers, we had become accustomed to poor quality work, giving low output to the firms which hired us and taking whatever salary we were paid for.

there was once a baby eagle whom had fallen off the nest of the eaglets.

The mother hen took him home.

So baby eaglet grow amongst the chicks. He ate like a chick, slept like a chick, and grew up almost a chicken. He had never tried f ly.. though deep in him, he thought he would like to do so very much...

Once the farmer took them all out, waiting to send them to slaughter house. The eaglet looked up and saw several other flying eaglets learning to fly. "How i wish i could be like them too".

He took a longer look, BUT i 'm exactly like them!

Then he heard the mother eagle spoke" fly my child, flap your wings hard and embrace the skies with your wings". And they did, they soar into the clear blue world.

The eagle stood amongst the chickens, he listened carefully and he flapped his wings really hard. He didn't fly. The other chickens laughed at him - for they thought he was mad. He tried again and again, and he failed many times. But for once, just before he was pushed into the house, he succeeded.. and at last he flew off and away from the skeptical brood...

Somewhat somehow we were like the little eaglet. We had the potential to give and soar. but we did not know it - while we were with the chickens.

In order to fly you need to know who you are. Look who you are. You are not just here by mistake, you are a creation of GOD. The clever wise and all-mighty creator who never sleeps nor slumbers.

Listen to the word of GOD. Life is a race, then GOD's word are the rules and regulations of the race. If life is a game, then GOD's word guides how to win the game.

Try, give it your best, you only have one and only chance at life. that is, this time, now.

Like the little eagle.. we have no second chances. How does men know what comes after today? How dare we boast of tomorrow.. which we may know that it may not realise...


Does Your Company Love Misery?
Patrick Lencioni teaches you how you can take charge of the situation and turn your office into a happy place

HERE’s a thought: Did you know that many professional athletes and entertainers are most likely to be miserable in their jobs? According to author and motivational speaker Patrick Lencioni, celebrities can still get depressed despite their money and the adulation they get from fans and media. Why? Because they could be feeling anonymous and irrelevant.


In his latest book, The Three Signs of a Miserable Job, Lencioni identifies three things that cause job misery in the office:


Anonymity. “The feeling that employees get when they realise that their manager has little interest in them as human beings and that they know little about their lives, their aspirations and their interests.”


Irrelevance. “Takes roots when employees cannot see how their job makes a difference in the lives of others. Every employee needs to know that the work they do impacts someone’s life — a customer, a co-worker, even a supervisor — in one way or another.”


Immeasurement. “The inability of employees to assess for themselves their contribution or success. Employees who have no means of measuring how well they are doing on a given day or in a given week, must rely on the subjective opinions of others, usually their managers’, to gauge their progress or contribution.”


According to Lencioni, the primary source of job misery and the potential cure for it resides in the hands of one individual: the direct manager. But he does give tips to employees who may want to take matters into their own hands.


Here’s three ways to make your office a better place to work in:


Look for the sign. Does your manager even want to make a difference? Assess whether [your] manager is interested in and capable of addressing the three things that are required. If the answer is no, it may be time to look for a new job.


Help your manager. The second thing miserable employees need to do is help their managers understand what it is they need. If they have a strong relationship with their manager, they can come right out and say it (“You know, it would mean a lot to me if you knew more about who I am and what makes me tick.” Or, “Can you sit down and help me understand why this work I’m doing makes a difference to someone.”


Turn the tables. Finally, employees would do well for themselves if they turned the tables and started doing for their managers what they want for themselves. For instance, employees who take a greater interest in the life of their managers are bound to infect them with the same kind of human interest. Similarly, employees who take the time to tell their managers (in a non suck-up kind of way) about the impact they have on their job satisfaction, will likely inspire them to respond in kind.

So start making a difference.

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