happy new year & happy new dreams

we 've just past CNY days and tmr is day one at work again. How i dread the coming of tomorrow.

Why?

After rotting for so "long" for about 4 days in Msia not doing much... after in CNY mood for about few weeks, and where has the "usual love for work" been to?

Nah, i didn't left it back at Muar. I brought myself back in whole. I had sent my resignation in already. No, it wasn't regret ... but yes, plenty of guilt and sea of sadness predicted to flood my valley...

The thought of looking at RW 's hurt face, been-betrayed SCP's eyes... and all the others... i wonder how to comfort so many... (i really cant think straight... really)


During the days of my lazy CNY 4 day TOTAL holiday, i read few pages from Dale's Carnegie and got a few dreams into my tiny mind...

1. i must have a goal & plan for the goal. and i must act on it. Otherwise, i m really drifting on water... and seems like everybody's got a plan somehow.. some short , some plan long..

2. i do not have any idea that people are born to have dreams.. and i grew up not knowing that i can have a dream, a big one, and acheive it...

3. i m 24 this year to come. and have yet to save enough to even finance my own schooling fees and i owe lots for insurance premium...

4. with GOD's power in me, i know i can acheive anything , that GOD can put in my heart.

5. what i set my heart to do, i can do, because GOD's power will keep me

6. the plan i do must be in alignment with GOD's Great commission and i really like it to be

7. recycling, massage, waste removal & waste to fuel, teach, using people whom others don't(-e.g. deploying teenagers from their hometowns, jobless and idling to work - perhaps to sell ICT products e.g. handphones, pda / teaching them construction specialist skills / open job agency to bridge those who seek work / experience w bigger co. at city ?), is gd biz. what's a gd business is , it sustainable, alive for a purpose, beyond benefiting oneself and beyond being only profitable, it serves people and has a key interest in making people better than where they were originally .

8. there are so many potential opportunities.. that i do not know where to start from... but first of all.. i need to finish my studies and think what are the SWOT in any industry that i ve mentioned above...

9. for this period i need to read moreabout entrepreneurship; learn the skills of determination & perserverance , creativity, sharp to money and dollar sense, good sense of global economy and local, sensitivity for market trend, network w ppl, talk to ppl about my plan (reveal a little about my long term goal), diligence...

10. pray and continue to seek (GOD), do (work and serve hard, play hard as well), learn from what u did or observe.

PRESS ON!!!

if you fail to plan, you plan to fail.


GOD, my heavenly father, give me a dream, teach me a plan, and make me before Thee that i may always hear your voice. Thank you for your love and patience! May i sought your way and find, and may i always serve Thee with a cheerful heart.

All the creation testifies for His glory

Source : http://www.rockymountainnews.com/news/2007/dec/04/the-gutsy-guy-who-made-nasa-history/

6 questions for astronaut Dr. Scott Parazynski

By Bill Scanlon

Tuesday, December 4, 2007

Tethered to the tip of the International Space Station, astronaut Dr. Scott Parazynski looked across the Himalayas, saw the Northern Lights and felt like the luckiest man above the face of the Earth.

Parazynski, a former Evergreen resident, last month performed what NASA is calling one of the greatest "space saves" in the history of manned space flight.

The crew of the space shuttle Discovery had installed a pressurized compartment on one side of the space station.

But when they unfurled two solar wings, on a girder on the left side of the space station, the second one snagged in tangled wires, ripping in two places.

Without the solar wings, the space station wouldn't have enough power to function, and the efforts and hopes of scientists worldwide would blink off.

Parazynski, an emergency room specialist, floated outside with wire cutters, pliers and homemade tools to fix the torn wing.

Propped on a 90-foot extension beam, he was farther away from the safe confines of the space station than any astronaut had ever been.

He also was dangerously close to a solar wing that had 100 volts of electricity.

Exhausting? Yes.

Successful? You betcha.

Monday morning, Parazynski answered questions posed by the Rocky Mountain News:

1 You're a scuba diver, a world-class luger, a rock climber. You've climbed all 53 of Colorado's 14,000-foot peaks. Was the space walk comparable to any of those?

The closest comparison would be a really difficult rock climb.

You're on belay the whole time. You have to be aware of your surroundings at all times. You're at your physical and mental limits.

2 Can you describe what it was like, out there alone, having a perspective hardly any of us will ever have?

There were so many things. It was a stream of consciousness that could cover a thousand pages. I'm not eloquent enough to do it justice.

To look back from the very tip of the space station at the most remarkable technology human beings have ever built . . . to look down across the Himalayas, to see sunrises and sunsets . . .

It was a real sense of awe, thinking of God's creation, feeling so fortunate to be there, so many powerful emotions coming over you as you stand there.

3 You're a doctor. How can space travel advance medicine?

In space, we can see changes in the body that mimic the normal aging process.

Because of the lack of gravity, there is a deterioration of the muscles and of bone density and a sense of balance.

As we sit on the couch on a weekend, we're actually doing a simulation of space flight, because we're not using our muscles.

In space, you push off with your fingertips and fly around like Buzz Lightyear.

If you're looking at osteoporosis in post-menopausal women, the space environment is a great lab. You can look at cause and effect, and at how things change, but the effects come much more quickly.

You can see how your countermeasures are working very directly.

4 How did you exercise in the space shuttle?

Because space walks are very physically challenging, it's important to exercise on board to preserve our capacity to use our muscles.

I used a bike that's similar to what you'd see in a spin class.

For the astronauts that are up in space for months, it's important that they get more resistance training, so we have a hydraulic system that simulates weights.

5 What drove you to the astronaut program, or for that matter, to all the other adventures in your life?

I had just incredible parents, very supportive. They were adventurers in their own right. My father worked for Boeing, and we lived in a lot of interesting places, including overseas.

I got the travel bug and the adventurous spirit from them. It shaped the way I look at life.

I'm like a lot of people in Colorado who relish experience and adventure.

6 Do your wife and two kids worry about you?

Yes, certainly. They are glad I'm done. They're ready for me to sit on the Barcalounger, I guess. Of course, I doubt if I'll do that.

But it does take a toll on the family. It's not without risk.

You can't do something of great significance and not be willing to take risks. You're respectful of the risks.

And I trust that everyone at NASA, everyone who works on the space shuttle, is doing everything they can to make sure it's as safe as humanly possible.

The benefits far outweigh the risks.

© Rocky Mountain News

source : http://www.rockymountainnews.com/news/2007/dec/11/volunteer-vaults-to-hero-status/

Church guard gains hero status
Ex-cop 'was very focused' as she 'took him down'
By Fernando Quintero
Originally published 12:30 a.m., December 11, 2007 Updated 11:54 a.m., December 11, 2007

The gunshots echoed like thunder in the hallway filling with smoke and the panic of those who sensed death at their shoulder.

The black-clad gunman coming through the church door was bringing hell to the believers.

The only thing in his way was Jeanne Assam.

"People were running away from where the shots were fired. I saw him through the chaos," Assam said Monday as she searched for some of the calm that carried her through the nightmare that played out inside New Life Church the day before.

"It seemed like it was me, the gunman and God," said Assam, whose hands trembled slightly as she spoke during the afternoon news conference.

Assam took cover and waited for the gunman to get close.

"God was with me. I was very focused. My hands weren't even shaking," said Assam, a volunteer security guard at New Life.

"I identified myself and engaged him then took him down," Assam said, giving a clinical account of the moment when she fired the shot ending the gunman's rampage.

"I didn't think for a minute to run away," she said.

A witness close enough to be hit by a bullet fragment is one of those who credits Assam with saving lives that day.

"She kept yelling, 'Surrender.' She was not flinching. It was unbelievable," said Larry Bourbonnais, 59, a New Life parishioner who was slightly injured on his left arm.

The gunman had fatally wounded two teenage girls in the parking lot before entering the building. But, New Life Pastor Brady Boyd said, if the attacker had made it another 60 feet down the hall, he could have shot hundreds of parishioners still inside.

Bourbonnais said the gunman was dressed in black with an assault rifle slung over his shoulder. Bourbonnais said he took cover behind a pillar as gunshots were exchanged.

Through the smoke that came from devices police had shot into the facility, Bourbonnais said he saw the gunman's head tilt forward, and then he fell to the ground.

"There were two other armed guards, but they weren't doing anything. I asked one of them to give me their gun so I could take the guy out," said Bourbonnais, a Colorado Springs resident who said he is a Vietnam veteran.

"I asked her, 'How are you so calm?' She said, 'I was praying to the Holy Spirit the whole time to direct me,' " Bourbonnais said recalling Assam's words. "The whole thing probably lasted 30 seconds."

Assam, who said she has been a member of New Life for a few months, said the incident happened on the last day of a three-day fast she had been on as part of her religious practice.

"I was weak. God made me strong. I'm honored God chose me," she said.

Assam said she read about the shootings in Arvada earlier in the day and "got chills."

A small woman with feathered blonde hair and eyes that were bloodshot, Assam said she had not slept since the tragedy and can't get the sound of the gunshots out of her head.

The shots were so loud, Assam said, it sounded like they were fired inside the church.

A former officer with the Minneapolis police, Assam delivered her story with the clipped understatement of a street cop.

But she broke the tension when asked about her personal background.

"I'm single. No kids," she said, quickly adding she was on the lookout for a man. She drew a laugh when she first declined to give her age; then said she was 25. She is 42, according to public records.

Assam grew up in Sioux Falls, S.D., went to Hamline University and graduated with a criminal justice degree, said her twin sister, Jennifer, of Sioux Falls. She has five sisters and a brother.

She worked with the Minneapolis police for several years in the late '90s before leaving the department and moving to Colorado in 2000.

Lt. Robert Kroll, vice president of the Minneapolis Police Union, confirmed that Assam was fired over "truthfulness issues." In an internal investigation, Assam had denied she used derogatory language in an encounter with a citizen in the late 1990s, but a videotape proved differently, Kroll said. Assam appealed, but the firing was upheld by an arbitrator.

Boyd said that Assam is one of 12 members of his congregation who volunteer to work as guards at New Life. Half of those volunteers carry firearms, he said, and all of those are licensed.

"She's a real heroine to me and the New Life Church," Boyd said.

The Minneapolis Star-Tribune contributed to this report.

你 当 走 的 路 甚 远 There is a great journey ahead

因为基督的爱激励我，神的话语：给我使命与肯定成为我这个乞丐的动力。


列 王 紀 上 19
4 （以利亚）自 己 在 旷 野 走 了 一 日 的 路 程 ... 就 坐 在 那 里 求 死 ， 说 ： 耶 和 华 啊 ， 罢 了 ！ 求 你 取 我 的 性 命 ...

7 耶 和 华 的 使 者 第 二 次 来 拍 他 ， 说 ： 起 来 吃 罢 ！ 因 为 你 当 走 的 路 甚 远 。

8 他 就 起 来 吃 了 喝 了 ， 仗 着 这 饮 食 的 力 ， 走 了 四 十 昼 夜 ， 到 了 　 神 的 山 ， 就 是 何 烈 山 。

9 他 在 那 里 进 了 一 个 洞 ， 就 住 在 洞 中 。 耶 和 华 的 话 临 到 他 说 ： 以 利 亚 啊 ， 你 在 这 里 做 甚 麽 ？

10 他 说 ： 我 为 耶 和 华 ─ 万 军 之 　 神 大 发 热 心 ； 因 为 以 色 列 人 背 弃 了 你 的 约 ， 毁 坏 了 你 的 坛 ， 用 刀 杀 了 你 的 先 知 ， 只 剩 下 我 一 个 人 ， 他 们 还 要 寻 索 我 的 命 。

11 耶 和 华 说 ： 你 出 来 站 在 山 上 ， 在 我 面 前 。 那 时 耶 和 华 从 那 里 经 过 ， 在 他 面 前 有 烈 风 大 作 ， 崩 山 碎 石 ， 耶 和 华 却 不 在 风 中 ； 风 後 地 震 ， 耶 和 华 却 不 在 其 中 ；

12 地 震 後 有 火 ， 耶 和 华 也 不 在 火 中 ； 火 後 有 微 小 的 声 音 。

13 以 利 亚 听 见 ， 就 用 外 衣 蒙 上 脸 ， 出 来 站 在 洞 口 。 有 声 音 向 他 说 ： 以 利 亚 啊 ， 你 在 这 里 做 甚 麽 ？

14 他 说 ： 我 为 耶 和 华 ─ 万 军 之 　 神 大 发 热 心 ； 因 为 以 色 列 人 背 弃 了 你 的 约 ， 毁 坏 了 你 的 坛 ， 用 刀 杀 了 你 的 先 知 ， 只 剩 下 我 一 个 人 ， 他 们 还 要 寻 索 我 的 命 。

18 但 我 在 以 色 列 人 中 为 自 己 留 下 七 千 人 ， 是 未 曾 向 巴 力 屈 膝 的 ， 未 曾 与 巴 力 亲 嘴 的 。





纵无人愿意 我仍要跟随
纵无人愿意 我仍要跟随
纵无人愿意 我仍要跟随
永不倒退 永不倒退



讲是讲得到,做是要操练的 (我要 我要 我要练!)




虽然无花果树不发旺，葡萄树不结果，橄榄树也不效力，田地不出粮食，圈内绝了羊，棚内也没有牛，然而要因耶和华欢欣，因救我的神喜乐（哈巴谷 三17~18）

THY lovingkindness is better than life

感谢神今天我和曼欣有机会一起参与今天的主日学教课。

感谢神在我紧急时垂听我不配的祷告(感谢神：让我爱主日学，让我爱主所爱的小朋友，爱我，给我力量，容我不断的尝试~叫我不至灰心、可以继续走)

由於昨天我们都很累，今天俩人状况都不是最佳。 (曼欣累得一到家，几乎即刻睡着；今天我还没清醒来，头就隐隐作痛~不知哪根精不对)
今天的小朋友并不多，约12位，我们(我，曼欣，小Samuel)都在开始前的时候一起祷告。然后我们就玩小朋友提议过的游戏( musical chair)，唱诗歌(没有用radio),奉献，听故事，背经，手工。

在一切的蹦蹦跳跳里，没有一刻是我记得我的头痛，可是，出奇的地方就是，当我们把东西都移到storeroom之后，我的头又忍不住痛了起来

虽然大家都说圣经已经明言，在这末世的世代里，再没有“神迹”可显现了，但是主知道他的孩子需要帮助的时候。如果真有这么多的巧合，那么神真的太可爱了，把这些我需要的巧合都巧合在正需要的时候。

虽然近日来，未得救的灵魂甚多，侍奉的机会慢慢增加；同工的精兵似乎有时似有似无，父母的要求(时间，金钱 申命记 8:18 你要记念耶和华你的神，因为得货财的力量是他给你的，为要坚定他向你列祖起誓所立的约，像今日一样。，学业)，家里的压力渐渐日增，距离考试的日子也越发接近 ~书，10%都没有温，但是感谢主， 总查觉当我继续走，我仍可以走下去，因为神的爱激励我！但愿上帝也常对你说话，给你力量。

歌 后 5:14 原来基督的爱激励我们


我心切慕耶稣，如鹿慕溪水
示也 慈爱比生命更好，我因主欢喜
我心称谢耶稣，我要歌颂我主
示也 是我良朋和蜜友，示也 永在我身旁

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Not only did our sunday school today marvel me, but also my brother's response and reactions towards our upcoming flag day. "give me a reminder for that too" he said.

Woooo!!!!


I don't love flag days ok (who does? you tell me) but for the good of whom i'm supporting, church, Breakthrough ... or who ever i'm doing it for. I do it with all my heart all my soul my might and every single cell of me jumps like crazy while we 're at it.

This time, it's not me and me alone. It's me, my brother and it's me and my brother!!! YAY!!!

this is significant, not only does that equate his participation into our event, but it means his heart is fine tuning and ready to serve GOD.

I'm so happy!! (don't need to sleep tonight already)

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亲爱的朋友　你是否想到

马槽的婴孩　是为你而来

亲爱的朋友　你是否了解

最好的礼物　是人子主耶稣



生命，有限　　

时光，也会走

如果你不珍惜，机会难留



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